Tag Archives: grief

God Uses Limping People

So Jacob was left alone, and a man wrestled with him till daybreak. When the man saw that he could not overpower him, he touched the socket of Jacob’s hip so that his hip was wrenched as he wrestled with the man…. Then the man said, “Your name will no longer be Jacob, but Israel, because you have struggled with God and with humans and have overcome.” (Genesis 32:24,29 NIV)

Jacob walked with a limp for the rest of his life. He became the father of the twelve tribes of Israel. God was with him. He was not perfect but he trusted God and God used him.

Sometimes our experiences leave us with an emotional and spiritual limp. Almost always we struggled with God as we tried to understand what had happened to us.

Our previous pastor, Leigh Robinson, lost his wife and sister when his son was only a toddler. However, he was able to use this testing experience to help others cope with grief. He even wrote a booklet, “Journey with Grief,” which I have given to many people who have lost loved ones, even non Christians. For South Africans it is available here.

I have heard of many Christians who have gone through traumatic and devastating circumstances that have left them permanently scarred and God was able to use them in amazing ways to help others. Joyce Meyer is one that comes to mind.

So if you walk with a limp, God is able to use you in a special way.

My Prayer

Father God, thank you for the unique experiences that have made me who I am. Help me turn my hurts, disappointments and regrets over to You. Please use me as You will. Amen.

This post is part of JusJoJan.

Lockdown Easing

From today South Africa moves from level five to level four lockdown. Pictures flood the news about people out exercising at Emmerentia Dam, Zoo lake, the Promenades in Cape Town and Durban and elsewhere.

I set out to journal the lockdown by posting every day but now I am going to ease off to two or three times a week.

Today’s Lockdownlookup was based on Ephesians 6:18. “And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests.” At other times Paul admonishes us to “Pray without ceasing” (1 Thes 5:16)

This sounds impossible but Pastor Richard shared an insight he got from another pastor. Praying at all times in the Spirit is merely inviting the Holy Spirit into the conversations in our minds. We can do that.

Let’s face it, we are all facing a loss of some kind. Loss of control, loss of security, loss of income, loss of loved ones, loss of freedom, loss of our life as it used to be. According to Elizabeth Kubler-Ross, the five emotional stages of loss are: denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance. I think we are all at different stages and we need to invite the Holy Spirit into all our internal conversations at whatever stage we are in.

At some stage we need to move on to acceptance. I’m not there yet. I’m still hovering around denial, hoping life will go back to what it used to be.

A very wise quote was sent to me by WhatsApp this morning. I don’t know who originally said it.

Coffee with Wings Feb#4

Yesterday in church our worship leader alluded to a grief she had suffered in recent months. She chose this hymn so lead us in worship.

When my grandson died this also was a song that inspired me and assured me God was with me. Being a Christian is not a bed of roses. Pain and grief are part of the journey.

  1. Be still, my soul: The Lord is on thy side;
    With patience bear thy cross of grief or pain.
    Leave to thy God to order and provide;
    In ev’ry change he faithful will remain.
    Be still, my soul: Thy best, thy heav’nly Friend
    Thru thorny ways leads to a joyful end.
    2. Be still, my soul: Thy God doth undertake
    To guide the future as he has the past.
    Thy hope, thy confidence let nothing shake;
    All now mysterious shall be bright at last.
    Be still, my soul: The waves and winds still know
    His voice who ruled them while he dwelt below.
    3. Be still, my soul: The hour is hast’ning on
    When we shall be forever with the Lord,
    When disappointment, grief, and fear are gone,
    Sorrow forgot, love’s purest joys restored.
    Be still, my soul: When change and tears are past,
    All safe and blessed we shall meet at last.
    Text: Katharina von Schlegel, b. 1697;
    trans. by Jane Borthwick, 1813-1897

03000687